Psalm 139

Part one



These four paintings all started life in the same way, and then I used fluid art techniques to create these abstract images. The original image was inspired by Psalm 139; specifically the verses 1-6 "LORD, you have examined me and you know me. You know everything I do; from far away you understand all my thoughts. You see me, whether I am working or resting; you know all my actions. Even before I speak, you already know what I will say. You are all round me on every side; you protect me with your power. Your knowledge of me is too deep; it is beyond my understanding" Sadly (stupidly) I didn't duplicate the original enough times and so don't have a copy of that. However now I reflect on that I wonder whether it's telling of the fact that I tried to paint a depiction of myself originally before being inspired to abstract it four times. Perhaps the losing of that original image is a reflection of the need to lose my image of myself and instead rest in the images God has of me. I'll pray on that. What I do know is that these four images speak to me about how God sees me, hears me, knows me and leads me. .....


Part two


God sees me God hears me God knows me God leads me I've been thinking some more about Psalm 139 and how much these four facts mean to me. Even just a few years ago the fact that God knew all of me was actually terrifying; that meant God could see the deep down horrible stuff that I felt was all my fault and too awful to voice. Now, thanks to amazing trauma counselling, support and prayer; I know that God always knew it all and loved it all and desperately wanted me to know that no shame was needed. That the whole point of these facts is about being loved completely rather than being judged. So I've added a mandala onto the abstract paintings I created. It's the same mandala and yet on the different backgrounds it looks and feels different. It also brings different parts of the paintings to life, as if God is helping me see, hear, know and follow.



I don't know if this speaks to anyone else but it's been incredibly powerful for me.